You are worth it! I have changed this 100 times, but what I want and what I want to tell you hasn't.
We were pretty damn close!
We weren't done, and I wasn't backing away.
I was giving you space to think. I know I scared the hell out of you because you got close. You warned me you back away when you get close, I wouldn't have pulled the rug from underneath you. But I didn't think you would totally disappear either.
I don't think either one of us expected each other. And it was absolutely fucking Awesome!!!
I can honestly say I miss you.
It's like I lost a piece of my puzzle. You were a HUGE piece! I had it. And I want it back. So I can put all the pieces of the puzzle back together.
I have been doing a lot of reading and research so I can learn and understand. I want to know and understand all of your why's. (You know what I mean) I'm getting it, I know now. But you have to tell me too. I wouldn't let you be alone or be in the dark. I want to keep giving you a light.
I want more, and everything that comes with you.
We both have layers, and have both had our share of bumps and bruises.
I know we had curve balls, but you were not alone. I was there too. I felt them the same as you.
We were just alone together.
Yeah, the situation has changed. But not the wants. I understand everything and the responsibilities that comes with it. I am free to do whatever i want same as you.
I wrote this-------
Sometimes you just want more.
You want someone to look after and to care about. You want everything that is in her life and all the possibilities of what could be.
From their perfections to their flaws.
You want to protect them. Even if you sometimes have to protect them from themselves. You want them to know someone truly cares about them. No vices. No intentions. No agendas. Just pure and true. You want that too.
Hell, I'll even listen to Michael Bolton and watch 12 Dates of Christmas if I have to.
Easy. Casual. That is how we start.
Sirens Song, Beautiful Lies, Hold onto me-
--Tanner Usrey
Symptom of being human-- Shinedown
Loud & Heavy- Cody Jinks
I will always wish for you to be safe and happy.
Because it is meant for you. I wish on shooting stars and the moon just for your wishes